journey log

Tonight I explored a little more of the realm, trying to find what I'm supposed to do next to advance the story. In that exploration I tried to go to the celistial theater, which I couldn't figure out. All they say is to even out your energy and the levitators will form shapes of the universe...I don't know. In any case, I decided to bail and practice other things. I finally opened the door to the subtle body temple. It's really interesting, because it doesn't use the biofeedback sensors. I did the first two exercises. They're meant to awaken you to your subconscious body. I started to get it, but it wasn't what I wanted to work on. So I returned to the temple with the energy events and worked with the bow and arrow. I finally figured out that it alternates between wanting low and high energy. Low I can do, sometimes it takes a while, but I can do it. High...I just don't do it consistently. I get spikes, and that's it. Perhaps it is due to my illness? I'm going to explore the message boards and see if there are recommendations, but I'll probably just have to keep experimenting. I just think it's interesting that i can relax but not pump up my energy, except for short bursts, which is not what is required usually. However, I know once I start to figure this out I will be able to apply those skills to healing, which will be very useful.