Fatum Operandi - SS102: Dialogue: Self-Analysis and Finding Your Path
SS102: Dialogue: Self-Analysis and Finding Your Path
I just realized I hadn't thought about my path so much lately. Graduate school has a way of focusing your thoughts on just your classes and how to survive. But I do have a destination in mind. I want to end up with a lot of land, a ranch, where we can homeschool our children and have a recording studio. I want to be able to relax, be in nature, raise conscious kids and grow. I don't want to be stressed out, I just want to be. So how does this happen? I figure for the next 20 years I'll be a research physicist and probably a professor. Then I'll retire and work on my own little projects and help carrie with the studio. We won't have bosses, and we'll be able to live free.
But how do I actually reach my goals happily? I continue working towards a less stressful life. I embrace my personal truth, which involves actually finding it! I work towards living honestly, which can be hard. I try to find balance, doing qigong to have good energy, pay attention to my wife so I have a good relationship, and focus on my studies. I simply do what needs to be done and things will work out perfectly fine. I get better all the time, but I still screw up. That keeps me humble, but I know I'm improving. And I stay this path because it is the only path I know, the only thing I can do.
There are some definate 'rules' to my path however, though they come from knowing myself and my soul. I do my best to not harm another individual. Harming someone only harms myself. I try to help others, because helping others helps myself. This sounds selfish, but it isn't, just insight gained by the understanding that we are all one, and what we do to others we do to ourselves. And beyond people, I do my best to not harm other creatures, including animals and plants because it hurts me. I'm trying to stick to a light path, though I believe the shadow path is the best, because I need to know I can walk light before I even try to walk shadow. Does that make sense? It does to me at least. My mentor said to me, one day way back, that I have the potential to be one of a few true 'form 6' people. Basically the highest light, encompassing pure love and acting from it. But I have a lot to do before I can even come close. I should talk to him about that next time I catch him online because I need to be reminded of what that all meant.
In short, my path is of that towards full consciousness, therefore I call myself a student of consciousness. I'm moving towards highly evolved being status (see conversations with god books) and we'll just have to see where I end up!
I just realized I hadn't thought about my path so much lately. Graduate school has a way of focusing your thoughts on just your classes and how to survive. But I do have a destination in mind. I want to end up with a lot of land, a ranch, where we can homeschool our children and have a recording studio. I want to be able to relax, be in nature, raise conscious kids and grow. I don't want to be stressed out, I just want to be. So how does this happen? I figure for the next 20 years I'll be a research physicist and probably a professor. Then I'll retire and work on my own little projects and help carrie with the studio. We won't have bosses, and we'll be able to live free.
But how do I actually reach my goals happily? I continue working towards a less stressful life. I embrace my personal truth, which involves actually finding it! I work towards living honestly, which can be hard. I try to find balance, doing qigong to have good energy, pay attention to my wife so I have a good relationship, and focus on my studies. I simply do what needs to be done and things will work out perfectly fine. I get better all the time, but I still screw up. That keeps me humble, but I know I'm improving. And I stay this path because it is the only path I know, the only thing I can do.
There are some definate 'rules' to my path however, though they come from knowing myself and my soul. I do my best to not harm another individual. Harming someone only harms myself. I try to help others, because helping others helps myself. This sounds selfish, but it isn't, just insight gained by the understanding that we are all one, and what we do to others we do to ourselves. And beyond people, I do my best to not harm other creatures, including animals and plants because it hurts me. I'm trying to stick to a light path, though I believe the shadow path is the best, because I need to know I can walk light before I even try to walk shadow. Does that make sense? It does to me at least. My mentor said to me, one day way back, that I have the potential to be one of a few true 'form 6' people. Basically the highest light, encompassing pure love and acting from it. But I have a lot to do before I can even come close. I should talk to him about that next time I catch him online because I need to be reminded of what that all meant.
In short, my path is of that towards full consciousness, therefore I call myself a student of consciousness. I'm moving towards highly evolved being status (see conversations with god books) and we'll just have to see where I end up!
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